Just Me

How convenient. I swear when I woke up I thought the radio was playing cuz this song was so loud. It wasn't. I think my brain just had its volume up too high. Lol.
You know, I think ppl who stop by this blog may think I need psychiatric help.
Perhaps they're right.



Yesterday night was fun. Played some games and made my salsa of death. Haven't made that in ages. It's all gone too. My sister is going to be suffering today heh heh heh.
Grilled with the family. Yes, I love grilling. :) LOVE IT!
I think I've said it before. What if I were different? It seems that bitches get away with more and seem to get ahead faster than nice people. But I don't want to be a bitch. I like the way I am.
Like this song says. I was born this way.
Why change?
So a friend of mine has crossed the line. He's been dancing on the edge for some time but I can usually dissuade him or change the subject before it goes to far. Not today.
He not only showed up at my place..he brought his two girls with him. Did he think that would have a part in my decision? Um..I love his girls. They are beautiful and smart and funny. But that doesn't mean I'm going to change my mind just because of them.
He wants to go out. Hook up. Whatever they call it now. Date.
I guess he got tired of beating around the bush and finally asked me.
I said no. I'm not in the mood for dating. I'm not in a place for dating. And he's not looking for a girlfriend, he's looking for a wife. I know this, he knows this. And I am not looking to be anyones wife at the moment. If ever.
Well...let's just say it would take some convincing. From someone pretty incredible. But for now nope.
Even if I did want to date him, what if it didn't work? That would ruin the friendship.
I know what he feels though. It's lonely sometimes. He deserves to find a woman who loves him and his daughters completely. I am not that woman. Nor will I ever be. That's what I told him. In his mind, I'm the one because we get along so well. I get along with almost everyone. He's got his feelings confused. Poor guy. Now things are awkward. I hope it fades. I like hanging out with him. Unfortunately, now I'm going to have to be careful with how much we hang out, lest he get the wrong idea. Sigh.
I called R and explained what happened. She was not so supportive. Lol. Ok she was in her own way but she's another one of those people who keep pushing me off on guys. It's alright. I know she means well.
The End.