You Learn

You live, you learn. Isn't that the way it goes? It would be nice to learn first and then live but then again...where would the fun in that be?
What have I learned so far in life? Hmm...let me count them.
I've learned that everyone lies. Sometimes even to themselves. I am one of these people. I lie daily. Not on purpose, not always, but I do. That includes myself. But that one is necessary. Bills come and I tell myself it will be fine. Family problems happen and I tell myself it will be fine. Lol. See? Neccessary.
I've also learned my life will always be full of disasters.
Take today:
I woke up with the sniffles. Full on boogers and sore throat. Dern. My cats wreaked havoc on the trash overnight and so there was crap everywhere. The hot water was being repaired in my apt so I took a cold shower (which I needed anyway heh heh) and I realized that not only didI not have any gas in my car has a flat tire (TODAY!) and I dip into the savings I don't have to fix it. Then I went and got myself an ice cream cone at the tastee freeze. Why? Cuz I survived. Survival is key.
Another thing I've learned in life is that blood is thicker than water.
Never realized how true that is. I've always said that I love my family no matter what. But my oh my how that has been tested in the past couple years. My mother, running off to Peru to marry some guy she met online while leaving me, at twenty, to care for my siblings as well as a family of my own. Cuz it was ok? My sister and her deceitful ways... My uncle nearly running me off the road. Ok wait. Him I do NOT forgive. There is no excuse for what he did to my sister and I. Or what he threatened to do. Forgiveness is not going to happen. I don't care if that makes me a bad person. Nobody should have to live in fear of a family member.
He's not even my real uncle. So blood is definitely thicker than water.
I love my family and all their psychotic ways. Lol.
I've learned that some of the people who claimed to be faithful and loving because they represent God, are not. Shunned is what I was. And looked at as if I had leprosy, not a child growing inside of me.
I've learned that regardless of all the shit that has happened to me...there are things worth living for. There are good people left in this world. Ones who truly care and want to see you excell. Ones who don't care if you are who you are. In fact they encourage it.
I've learned how to laugh again. To smile again. Found my inner glow again. I thought it had been snuffed out permanently. Scars don't heal completely sometimes but maybe that's a good thing. Cuz they remind me of what I've survived. Remind me I am a strong person.
Sometimes I need reminding.
The End.